FW: Readiness Rating Approver Confirmed Presentation MONICA P. COLLI

One of these is my readiness rating and the other is my horoscope for today.

I got the surprise of my readiness rating today.  After David and I discussed it, I’m now at ‘taking on a expanded role in my current position’.  He is dubious about this rating, and I have no reason to blame him for it.  I’m not consistent with my work.  And the next position takes on my analysis and I definitely have problems with figuring out problems or solutions on other people’s logic.

My trying to get to a 4E is an entirely different issue.  So is my trying to become a web developer.    I do already know this, however, in my shooting for all these things to occur at the same time, I tend to merge it all together.  What I mean is, I could eventually get to do some web development however, if my level of work stays the same, I’ll be doing it as a 4D.  My problem is the same as it always it: having consistent work.  To get to a 4E, I have to become better at analysis since that job does more than mine does.  I did a lot more in my other position, however how I had trouble in that arena there too.   I can break down problems; unfortunately, I don’t do it as quickly as others, I don’t always come up with the correct conclusions, etc.  These are probably the reasons that Dr. Barkley suggested that programming may not be the best IT choice for ADDers (as opposed to other IT positions like working with the hardware, as in a tech job).  He didn’t imply the other jobs can’t be done by us, just that it would be a lot more work.  Lol, I’ve know that for over 20 years.  I should not lose sight of the fact that as much as I work to go further, this may be as far as I go.  I’ve been at this level for a decade.  Do I see myself staying here for another 10 or 20 years?  I have also considered taking early retirement and then trying another tech job.  I don’t know, I’ll have to see what the next decade brings.  I’m more interested in building data processes than building PCs and repairing them, or building databases or other such things.

I need to do web coding, along with learning it, on my own.  Instead of taking some courses and then saying ‘ok, I took these, now let me code something, please’ I instead need to take some courses, create some sites online, then go to my bosses and say ‘I’ve learn how to do some web coding, let me show you some of my work’.  I’ve not done that in the past: I never have money for courses, or to purchase web space, plus, I have never wanted to create some dummy site.  At the same time, I don’t want to create a site for myself because I wouldn’t be able to do it the way that I wanted, not to mention not having everything that I needed ready and in place, such as completed costumes to sell, performance videos to advertise myself with, etc.  I know of a possible web site to develop for myself: for years, I’ve wanted to be able to put a list of my music in a site that can be accessed by me or others.

Thanks ….